You were brought up to believe that you have to be a certain way to be accepted, approved and loved.
You were taught that who you were and what you had wasn’t enough.
You’ve lived your life through everyone else’s expectations but your own.
You were taught to believe that your voice wasn’t valid and your boundaries weren’t respected.
You were taught that because they were adults, they were always right.
You were told how to behave and to fit in.
You were told that good girl wasn’t meant to be bossy and that anger was a bad thing.
You were told off for being ‘too loud’, ‘too naughty’, ’too demanding’, ’too needy’, ’too clingy’, ‘too much’ …only to believe that being less than ‘perfect’ wasn’t an option
You grew up believing that your body had to look a certain way…that cellulite and stretch marks were your biggest enemies, that not having the ‘perfect’ body meant that you weren’t gonna be accepted or loved.
You learnt to hate your body into years of shame, abuse, judgments an criticisms.
You found yourself falling into arms of bad boys and emotionally unavailable men who treated you next to nothing because that was what you believed you deserved.
You spent years searching for love, only to realise that you were just as empty and alone being with someone.
You’ve tried everything you could to numb the pain inside, from food to shopping, from TV, sex, drugs or anything else you could get your hands on, so you couldn’t feel.
So you started to wear masks and pretended that your life was all perfect
You couldn’t let yourself be seen imperfect or vulnerable because that brought up all of your childhood wounds.
You put on fake smiles, living your life to impress people, only to come home to emptiness and self loathing.
You ran away from yourself for so long that you have no idea who you are anymore.